I am so sorry to hear of all of this, Blingin. You are dealing with a lot of heartache at one time. For what it’s worth, I think you are doing the right thing by talking it out, confronting your dad, and avoiding the road your mom has taken. If I may, I just wanted to pass along a couple passages from Scripture that have helped me through some tough spots:
“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”
Hebrews 4:15-16 ESV
“He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”
Romans 8:32 ESV
“If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.”
James 1:5-6 ESV
Blingin, I’ve never met you or talked with you before, but I sincerely want the absolute best for your life. I am confident that if you humbly turn to the Lord for strength and direction, you will be pulled up out of the pit you are in! That second passage I included above always speaks to me so deeply as it begins with “He who did not spare his own Son[...]” Man that’s how much God loves [Blingin]—God in the flesh, on a cross, to pay for our debts, to offer eternal forgiveness, security, and perhaps best of all, a real intimate relationship with Him. I don’t know about you, but nobody else has ever wanted me that much—to leave heaven and endure suffering on my behalf. Oh bless the Lord for His undeserving love and goodness! Man, walk with this God. He already sees the good He will bring about through all of this. He wants you to turn to him, and trust Him. Praying for you brother, and if you want to chat, HMU anytime! 336-951-9535
God bless,
Ethan