All good responses!!
1- set yourself some achievable goals. Now these can be as big or as small as you need. Start small, say let's achieve something every single morning, like wake up and make the bed. Do every single day. This will start your day every day, having already accomplished something. Then keep building from there.
2- scout! You dont have to put boots on the ground right now but you can certainly build yourself quite a list of things to do before the season starts!.
3- dont worry about the things you cannot control. Stressing over something that is completely out of your control can become unhealthy. Focus on the things that you can effect, like your house, your family, your preparation for the coming season and so on. Being a law enforcement, you are in the middle of it, so itll be tough to not stress. Which leads me to my next point.
4- dont bring work stress home. Talk with your spouse or what have you and make a plan to decompress daily. Keep a fishing rod in your car and stop to cast a line for 30mins after everyshift, or plan to micro scout, check our new hunting grounds on the way home. I do both of these almost everyday.
I can imagine you just feel burned out! Just know that even you may require help at times, there's nothing wrong with, it doesn't make you "crazy", it just happens. I know that it may seem arbitrary to say but WE, the collective we, (saddlehunter), feel for you and appreciate you! Now, I can only speak for myself on this one but if you need anything let me know how I could help you! I will be happy to do so.
God bless, stay safe, and keep your head up, as you still have something to be proud of!!