Blinginpse
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Fellas this coming Sunday 2 weeks ago my life fell to pieces. My wife left me after a touch over 4 years. We have been up and down over the time of our marriage and it's been on both of our accounts. She is from about 1:15mins away from where we live here on my family farm where I work. Beef and dairy.
She has struggled adjusting and always wanted to go and do and such but never understand I couldn't just do that. My father has added a lot of stress on me for most of my life. Worked me like a dog never appreciated anything I've ever done and she tried to get me to stand up to him to get him to help me a little so I could get away. I finally stuck my ground to him Tuesday after she left but it's seemingly to late.
I'm struggling with with this and not quiet sure how to deal with it or where to start for recovery. Most of you know me as a cut up but this has sucked the life out of me. I am
Going to meet with preacher man tonight and his wife and talk with them. I'm in a hole right now that is making me see why people
Commit suicide.
I cannot explain what it took to unleash 20-25 years of lent up hurt and anger to my daddy before getting started working that morning and then trying to deal With her gone. I held it all In for 9 days never talked to a soul and finally I've had to Let it out. My mother is a drunk has been all my life. I do not wanna go down that road I know better. I need some advice.
I don't typically air out any mess like this but I'm smart enough to know I'm in a situation right now that I've never been in and it's bigger than what I can deal with alone
She has struggled adjusting and always wanted to go and do and such but never understand I couldn't just do that. My father has added a lot of stress on me for most of my life. Worked me like a dog never appreciated anything I've ever done and she tried to get me to stand up to him to get him to help me a little so I could get away. I finally stuck my ground to him Tuesday after she left but it's seemingly to late.
I'm struggling with with this and not quiet sure how to deal with it or where to start for recovery. Most of you know me as a cut up but this has sucked the life out of me. I am
Going to meet with preacher man tonight and his wife and talk with them. I'm in a hole right now that is making me see why people
Commit suicide.
I cannot explain what it took to unleash 20-25 years of lent up hurt and anger to my daddy before getting started working that morning and then trying to deal With her gone. I held it all In for 9 days never talked to a soul and finally I've had to Let it out. My mother is a drunk has been all my life. I do not wanna go down that road I know better. I need some advice.
I don't typically air out any mess like this but I'm smart enough to know I'm in a situation right now that I've never been in and it's bigger than what I can deal with alone